The hand of God

It would surprise allot of people to know that I believe that the hand of God is firmly in our lives.
I have always stood apart and believed that I am in control, I am aware and see the things operating around me. I plan, I prepare, I control.
I cannot now deny nor turn away from how this has all come to pass.
With all that has happened in such a short period of time.
To be where we are now, today, full of such joy and love.
Yes, we still have things to worked out.
Issues to be resolved.
The core still is our Love for one another.
The Love that has risen above all hurt.
My heart is brimming with feelings.
Our miracle within you is a reflection of Gods love for us.
It is a sign of the direction laid out before us.
To be together, to be a family.
The road to here has been full of twists and turns.
Those turns have brought me to the other side of hurt.
The other side of selfishness.
My own way of seeing things is re-focused.
I can see what lays before us.
Not of my doing, nor my control.
I release this journey of ours the Gods will.
My heart open, my eyes wide and my ears ready.
For you are going to be a fantastic mother.
Bringing to a life the Love that you have.
I am supported and strengthened by God to
be the Husband that you deserve.
This child of ours will share in the warmth and Love and caring that we have.
The how, the why, the hurt of our journey to having a baby is behind us.
We are moving forward, forward hand in hand.
Aware of the power of God.
Aware that where we are now is meant to be as it is.
Past the pain and ill feelings. Past the pettiness. Past mis-communications,
the missed signals, the assumptions the self doubting. Past the selfishness.
I am to commit ed to this journey, my Love, my Wife.
I am committed to you.